oh hey, i didn't see you guys all the way over there

Today I was busy fixing someone else's mistake so I didn't get to eat lunch and yet it was my housemate who fainted when we went to give blood this evening. Good things do happen to bad people!

I don't really think I'm a bad person, although I know some people who do. I wish I was a bit thinner and a bit nicer to people I regret, but I'd also like the moon on a stick and that'll never work, so I'm going to have to go for what I've got.

I've made a new friend who's caused some maltreated synapses to fire and now I've got this sick feeling in my stomach like something bad is going to happen, but I'm pretty sure it's already happened. At the moment I feel like I'm living in a five year repeating cycle and every time I come to the zenith it drops back into the first scene again. Sometimes the people are different and sometimes the cycle doesn't take as long, or it takes longer, but I've got a feeling if I can just get it to complete then everything will come out OK. But I'm not there yet.